The Golden Hour
This is the email I wrote to you almost a year ago, as I descended into health chaos. I’ll be writing more about my current health situation soon, so let this be context.
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Dearest friends,
This is an apology, an awakening, an idea, and a fear.
First, I have left you in the unknown because I was grappling with my pain and all the fears it brought along for the ride.
For those of you not following my social media posts: I have had migraine headaches every day for over a month now, scrambling from the emergency room to the walk-in clinics to specialists, trying to find out WHY, while learning how to survive it.
It has changed everything, and as I went from week to week in unrelenting pain, I was clinging to the hope that it would be over soon, so that I could resume what I had planned and promised.
Over the last few days have found relief from my pain, and with that relief came some profound realizations, in this extended retreat from life.
My very own Golden Hour.
Transformation. Alchemy. The light has shifted, and nothing looks the same. So I undertake the task of shifting myself, to learn what I can, lose what I must, and carry only what is most essential. It’s a journey to the heart of me.
In practical terms, this means:
I'm only teaching Drawing Health for now.
You'll see that in class, have to wear an eye mask so am not tempted to look at the screen.
My emalls will be sporadic and more personally focused for a while.
My Slow Burn Mentorship groups will be combined to reduce my hours
I have to make peace with the way these changes look like loss, reduction, and the very opposite of a good business decision. I may lose most of my stable income during a time when I need it most, but I have to prioritize my health, and trust in the future that we’re building together.
I started this business to support and sustain me, not in spite of my health conditions, but in collaboration and celebration, a dynamic grassroots community of inclusion and mutual support. Stepping back is part of that. I’m still here for you.
Committing to ourselves and each other, in our values, means facing this discomfort. I’m deep in it now, and if you want to join me, I’d be happy to share.
My apology to you is that I took this long to bring you in. I’m sorry you had to wait for word of what is happening with me.
I myself still don’t really know.
My awakening is to the new level of trust and care that I can give myself, both alone and with others.
We are vastly powerful beings.
My idea is that we keep the community together, and I invite you to step in where I leave space.
Rewatch old classes together! Chat and share your art in the discord! Your creativity knows no bounds.
My fear is that you will all disappear — but the truth is, that even if you do, you belong to yourselves and your own unfolding.
I’m honoured to know you.
I’m undoing all my knots, untangling threads of being, redefining what I love and what is meaningful to me. There’s another evolution on its way, in its own time.
Here’s to a slow winter, cozying up in ourselves, and restoring our resources. Hit reply if you want to reach me, just know that I’m moving slow in every way these days.
Sending all the love,
Georgia